Rewriting my story.
Brie has been backed into a corner, she has to choose between her responsibility to be a present mother, fight for her daughter, and experience even more stress potentially causing her health to spiral out of control again. OR to improve her quality of life, choose herself this time, and let go of the relationship she has always dreamed of with her beloved daughter.
She’s choosing herself this time.
Throughout the years Brie has had to train her daughter to use the negative experiences she has had in her life with the people closest to her as lessons, to empower her to make wise relationship decisions in the future. This isn’t the life Brie envisioned for her family, and she did everything she could to create the happiness and peace she wanted for herself and her family. Because of all these unnecessary stressors, Brie has battled with alcoholism, depression, and anxiety, a few months in the hospital because of a nervous breakdown, all because she’s trying to “be strong” and “make it through” for herself and her daughter.
If Brie chose to continue on this path, within three months she would have begun taking her frustrations out on her daughter, fallen severely ill, experienced another nervous breakdown ending up in the hospital again. Though she is devasted by the thought that Eliza may feel she has been abandoned by her mother by not trying to get her back, she accepts that she does not control anyone but herself and the choices she makes. She knows Eliza is not in immediate danger and maybe she has a lot to gain from being raised with another perspective on life. Maybe letting go right now is what they both need to strive instead of just surviving for the remainder of their lives.
Positive change doesn’t always come when we’re expecting it and it may not look the way we want it to but it’s often the changes we least expect that bring us the most growth and fulfillment.
Self-love is a journey. Prioritize it along the way.
